As for me..I'm scatterbrained...

I am so scatterbrained sometimes...ok so ya this is my second post in one day..dont judge me..i'm at work..and i am on the computer all day..so ya..i get a lil bored...:)
So i had a dream last night about someone who i used to be really close with...dreams amaze me first of all...i haven't thought about this person in forever..and out of no where i dream about him...I am also a firm believer that they usually mean something...and since i woke up this morning i can't seem to stop thinking about this person..wondering how they are..where they are..what their doing with their life...i used to know..but so much time has passed by...do i even know this person anymore..or have they changed completley..they more than likely aren't the same...which is sad to me in a way...but change is good tho too...growing up..moving on...maturing in life..and everything...that is def. a good thing...back then...i saw this person every day for a huge portion of my life...so i never had to wonder...i already knew...
i just def. believe there are certain people we know over the years..who stay with us..whether or not we move away or create a whole new life with all new people...there are just those certain ones who..keep showing up in your mind...or in your dreams..those people God just puts in your heart for a reason i'm sure...despite the bitterness...or anger you may have obtained against them...we always remember the good things..and those are what matters the most...it is possible to only remember the good...but also very important to me..to learn from the bad...if you hold onto those bad things..its affects you over the years...and it is more than likely best for you to just let go...
My life is about to change once again..in a huge way...i'm going to actually do what i love and get paid for it..and it doesn't even seem real yet...well i guess cuz it isn't quite yet...but i'm trying to wrap my mind around the fact that it will be real..in like 2 weeks or so...and God has been just teaching me and helping me to decide what is good to hold on to...and what is better left alone and left behind...mostly right now..i'm learning to let go of certain things i used to lean on..and depend on...come to find out they werent as dependable and sturdy as i thought....and i know for a fact that was God..i was depending and needing these things to keeps me stable..when all i need is Him...he has been revealing the fact that i'm strong enough and dependant enough to only have one thing that is sturdy and true..and that's Him...wordly things..let you down..crumble and dissapear...and when it is something or someone you have come to love..it hurts your heart when they do...it also hurts your trust...why put yourself through that..why not rely on someone who will never do those things...and will promise to never hurt you or abandon you...seems simple huh??

As for me...I'm blessed...

Well hello everyone! haha I have a photography blogger...but I decided that I needed one just for me...for me to randomly post..with just my thoughts and sporadic revelations! :)
So I'm sitting here at work..just thinking about my family...the one thing that has always been constant in my life...I am getting to see them this weekend..We are all traveling to Clyde, Texas to go to my grandparents 75th birthday part-aae...So I get to see the WHOLE family...and I must say it's been too long.. :( My family holds such a huge part of my life that I literally go through withdrawls if I go a long time with out seeing them...
I dont want to brag..but I have the best mother in the whole world...I'm so blessed to have her...shes has this kind heart..thats just gracious and giving...I pray that I will be as understanding and loving to my own kids one day :)
Here is a photo of Mom & Ethan...(my nephew)

I dont know what I would do without either one my parents...I have always been a daddy's girl..ever since I was little..so he has been a huge influence for me my whole life...I have his brown eyes and dark hair...and maybe I got my stubborness from him too..i dunno..haha

Heres Daddy & Zayne (other nephew)....

Heres of pic of both my parents...
and some pics of me and my sisters..Emily & Anna

give me time...

so i planned to go ahead and post my first entry tonight..but i decided i was really tired..and i have to work in the morning..so its not really the best time..but dont give up on me yet :D tomorrow..i promise :)
goodnight!