so wow its been a while since i've updated...i feel like i'm always saying that..sorry :) i dont know what has gotten into me these days...i just have felt so distant..if you want to know the truth...not like myself...but at the same time..just trying to figure out what makes me...me...over the years i've grown into to this woman that continues to repeat certain situations in her life...who, continues to fall and get back up again...who experiences love and dissapointment and somehow always gets stuck in the middle of it all...just praying God will point me in the right direction again...on that note..wow none of that made any sense..good luck trying to figure it out.. :)
so..this year has flown by...i will be turning 24 on christmas day...and i really dont know how that even happened..how am i almost 24 years old...and this year is almost up...gone...only to be remembered as the "past"...and there ya go...just like that, another year is finished...every year that i get older...the things most important to me change...they are always changing...the people that mean the most to me are always slowly becoming less a part of my life..and its almost like i can literally feel change washing away what used to be the "loves" of my life...the only good part about that, is...that change is constantly bringing new "loves" into my life...and for that i am thankful...i guess i get to trade...even so..leaving behind certain people that used to be such a huge part of my life..will always be upsetting for me...knowing that its for the best and even if you wanted to..you cant change it...some things are just destined to be...and i trully believe that...ive given up on guessing...you'll waste your life away..planning and trying to predict how your life will be...how it all will turn out...truth is...we have no control over that...and why would you continue to get let down when your plans get messed up or aren't the way you wanted them to be...all i know is, i can't control my life or where i'll be this time next year...all i can do is continue to take life one day at a time...and go with what God's given me...trust in how i feel and believe in that...(i'm so cheesy, i know haha)
things are about to change in my life...and i'm ready for it, i am...i'm ready to leave whats happened this past year behind me..whether it was good or bad..it all will be left..as memories...
