so life just isn't ever what you expect or believe it should be...but that isn't new news huh...not for me it isn't anyway...the only way to stay sane is to remember that the only steady and predictable thing is God...
so i just turned 26 and i'm not gonna lie..it was a lil tough on my emotions...it just felt so different..like maybe i should have my life put together by now or just maybe i lost the chance...which is ridiculous but sometimes those kind of thoughts are inevitable...i dunno...the truth is i really have felt like i have accomplished a lot in this past year...its just not what i would have put together or planned for my life...but maybe thats a good thing...it has to be..God is the only one who knows what is best for me...and everything is as it should be...i might have made 100 mistakes along the way but after asking for his forgiveness countless times and then forgiving myself...those mistakes have been erased and it amazes me that God never stops loving me..he loves me despite it all...guilt is something that holds us back...i honestly believe it is something the devil uses to make us feel like less than what we are worth...and then it only leads to more and more sin because there is no longer a reason to be who we truly are...it's all just lies..all we have to do is recognize that...
its 2011 now..a perfect time for a new start and i'm constantly breathing in and out and reminding myself that this year will be full of events that are meant to be and hopefully refreshing to my life :)
