So today is super windy and dusty and i woke up feeling horrible because of it...ugh...i can't stand days like this...i obviously am more a fan of nice and perfect weather..but who isn't haha
my mind is so blank right now...i have felt like that a lot lately and i hate it...i find myself thinking constantly about the things in my life i dont approve of..and then letting it get the best of me..and the way i have been dealing with it is basically shutting down...shutting the things out of my mind hoping they will stay away forever..but they dont...never do...there are so many things to look forward to...i wish those were the only things filing through my mind...ugh is it possible to only remember the good and never the bad? that just seems so unrealistic doesn't it?
tonight my mom, older sister, and two nephews are coming into town..mom is moving here permanently but my older sister and nephews will be here a week. So ya i am super excited to get to spend some fun times with them. my family has always been there for me and has been one of the only constant things in my life....i am very blessed to have such a strong family base...and i really do treasure that...i never want to take that for granted...no sir...
i guess what i am really waiting on is someone to come into my life who is gracious, mature, interesting, and many many other things..someone who has the potential to start something great with...i'm done with the petty, immature, pointlessness in my life...i have already had enough of it in my life..not sure there is even room left for more...i think that is why i feel blank most of the time...i'm done with and hoping to get rid of what makes me feel that way...lately my prayers have all been sounding the same...they are pretty much on repeat...
none of us know for certain what will happen tomorrow or next week or even next year for that matter..in fact i am unsure of pretty much everything in my life. One thing that i am not unsure of is Him....in fact he is the only thing i am sure of...the only thing i have ever been sure of.
Proverbs 18:10 THE NAME OF THE LORD IS A STRONG TOWER, THE RIGHTEOUS RUN TO IT AND ARE SAFE.
when i think of this i feel secure and stable, because i know that no matter how messed up this world is..or the relationships going on in it...God will forever be right and strong and true...and i never want to let the negative make me forget that feeling...He is the rock that keeps us all standing when all we want to do is give up...
Love,
Bethany
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
He who humbles himself will be exalted...
I had such a crazy day yesterday...i got up at 7 and had plenty of time to get everything i needed done..and then right in the middle of drying my hair i realized..'HEY I DONT HAVE TO BE AT WORK UNTIL 10 NOT 9" so i had like an hour to waste which actually turned out pretty nice...but i had eaten breakfast at 7 and was really ready for lunch at noon..but we didnt have a lunch break till 1:30 so..it was very torturous i'm not gonna lie haha....and i worked about 8 hours yesterday so by the time i got home..i was pretty tired..and then it was weird..the day was pretty much over..all i wanted to do was get in my pjs and watch american idol..and other shows haha i'm a nerd...
I am amazed at what God is doing in my life right now...he rewards those who are honoring him...and its easy to forget how important that is to do...lately i've been soo aware of how God is working in my life. All of the things i think i need are usually what is distracting me from my relationship with Him. Even though i'm 25 i tend to act like a 5 year old and throw a little fit when things dont go my way. I come from a really dramatic family and sometimes i let that get the best of me.
the scripture i'm looking at this morning is Luke 18:14 FOR EVERYONE WHO EXALTS HIMSELF WILL BE HUMBLED AND HE WHO HUMBLES HIMSELF WILL BE EXALTED.
God is constantly letting us know that he has a place for us up in heaven..specifically made for each and every one of us. All we have to do is be true to our promises to him and continue to allow him to direct our lives.
I pray that i have the strength to be the best that i can be every day :)
Love,
Bethany
I am amazed at what God is doing in my life right now...he rewards those who are honoring him...and its easy to forget how important that is to do...lately i've been soo aware of how God is working in my life. All of the things i think i need are usually what is distracting me from my relationship with Him. Even though i'm 25 i tend to act like a 5 year old and throw a little fit when things dont go my way. I come from a really dramatic family and sometimes i let that get the best of me.
the scripture i'm looking at this morning is Luke 18:14 FOR EVERYONE WHO EXALTS HIMSELF WILL BE HUMBLED AND HE WHO HUMBLES HIMSELF WILL BE EXALTED.
God is constantly letting us know that he has a place for us up in heaven..specifically made for each and every one of us. All we have to do is be true to our promises to him and continue to allow him to direct our lives.
I pray that i have the strength to be the best that i can be every day :)
Love,
Bethany
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Create in me a pure heart...
So I was lying in bed last night and realized that this summer i really want to change some things in my life...so i'm starting off by getting up a half hour earlier than i would originally to get up for work and type a post about what scripture i'm going over that morning. God has a way of renewing my soul and i miss that feeling.
this morning i'm looking at...
Psalms 51:10-12-CREATE IN ME A PURE HEART, O GOD, AND RENEW A STEADFAST SPIRIT WITHIN ME. DO NOT CAST ME FROM YOUR PRESENCE OR TAKE YOUR HOLY SPIRIT FROM ME. RESTORE TO ME THE JOY OF YOUR SALVATION AND GRANT ME A WILLING SPIRIT, TO SUSTAIN ME.
Psalms is my all time favorite book. It's full of prayers and praises to Him that i really feel every time i read the words. i love it...
i especially love this scripture because of how certain it makes me feel. I long for that relationship i have had with God in the past. I want to get our friendship back somehow but honestly every time i begin to concentrate on that, it feels like i'm reaching for something that is just so far away. i continue to have all of these dreams about trying to get somewhere that doesn't exist, having no control, being stuck in chaos that is just impossible to get through. I dont trust this world at all, i barely trust anyone in it...so i find it difficult to trust God sometimes. He has never done anything to break my trust and never will, but i still continue to have problems trusting and just letting go. I have this idea of how my life should be and that if i dont have certain things i can't be happy. None of it is true, and i will keep praying for Him to sustain me and to grant me a willing spirit. I want to get rid of the voice in my head, telling me that i will never be happy, and all of the dreams i long for are out of reach.
God, help me to build up the strength to push away those negative thoughts and to accept the positive ones that i know are true. I love you and have sincerely missed you. I'm sorry for letting fear and anger get in the way.
Love, Bethany
this morning i'm looking at...
Psalms 51:10-12-CREATE IN ME A PURE HEART, O GOD, AND RENEW A STEADFAST SPIRIT WITHIN ME. DO NOT CAST ME FROM YOUR PRESENCE OR TAKE YOUR HOLY SPIRIT FROM ME. RESTORE TO ME THE JOY OF YOUR SALVATION AND GRANT ME A WILLING SPIRIT, TO SUSTAIN ME.
Psalms is my all time favorite book. It's full of prayers and praises to Him that i really feel every time i read the words. i love it...
i especially love this scripture because of how certain it makes me feel. I long for that relationship i have had with God in the past. I want to get our friendship back somehow but honestly every time i begin to concentrate on that, it feels like i'm reaching for something that is just so far away. i continue to have all of these dreams about trying to get somewhere that doesn't exist, having no control, being stuck in chaos that is just impossible to get through. I dont trust this world at all, i barely trust anyone in it...so i find it difficult to trust God sometimes. He has never done anything to break my trust and never will, but i still continue to have problems trusting and just letting go. I have this idea of how my life should be and that if i dont have certain things i can't be happy. None of it is true, and i will keep praying for Him to sustain me and to grant me a willing spirit. I want to get rid of the voice in my head, telling me that i will never be happy, and all of the dreams i long for are out of reach.
God, help me to build up the strength to push away those negative thoughts and to accept the positive ones that i know are true. I love you and have sincerely missed you. I'm sorry for letting fear and anger get in the way.
Love, Bethany
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