sometimes i wish my life was a book, so i could skip to the end and just reassure myself that this all happened for a reason....

everything just feels like it has been such a wreck here lately and i dont really know how to get it back together..in fact i'm honestly not even sure it ever was "together" at all...i know i'm being dramatic but it just feels healthy to get this out i think...

i turn 27 soon and i dont feel ready...i dont think i was ready for 26 or 25 either but this time i feel dangerously close to 30. i feel like i should have had a list of things i most definitely needed to have done by the time i turn 30...i wouldn't even know how to begin on a list like that though..i change so much every year how would it even be legit....so instead i am just going to continue to live my life the best i know how... and try to forget about all the things i thought i needed to have done by now...

instead i am going to go check a book out from the library...get lost in the story and forget about my own...